The Friday night post that started as a rant, and turned into motivation

Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation.

0807ODsunBy far, one of my favorite quotes of all time. Thank you, Elizabeth Gilbert, for finding beauty in the chaos, and leaving this gem of inspiration for others like myself.

Lately I have described my life as being ‘in shambles’. Which, partially, is kind of correct. I know that job changes don’t go unnoticed by my internet-addicted peers- and I know this, because I’m just as guilty as anyone else, if not more. I am aware that I haven’t been as involved in other people’s lives as much as I normally am. I’ve been distant, and I’m sorry.

There’s been so much going on lately. Just so much going on. I’ve rotated through 3 jobs in the last month, for anyone that may have been counting. No, that does not look good- but it’s my business, that’s for sure. In this connected world we live in, and with how quickly information travels, it only makes sense to me that I keep the people I care about in the loop on where I work and what I’m doing with my life. I’ve had some really sad things happen lately, but…

But I would rather not invoke a sob-story and make this a pity party, because there’s always something going on- that’s what life is. There will NEVER be a moment in time when things simply aren’t happening. This world progresses to being more populated, better connected, and more efficient at getting busier, each and every day. There is no such thing as a ‘break’. There isn’t a point in time when you reach a goal, and you take a breath and sigh; where your shoulders relax and you sit down and say, “I did it, and now it’s done”. Because it’s not done. Instead, life will simply go on, until it doesn’t. You are truly only done when you die, so you have to make every second, of every day, count. You have to devote every breath in, and every breath out, to that constant energy that IS your heart and soul.

And it’s HARD. Life, in case you’ve never heard the saying before, is difficult. But that’s what makes it so great. Yes, there will be moments that will present themselves as dull and numbing- don’t let them fool you. There will be moments that feel impossible, and you won’t know how to get through it- but that’s okay. Because the fact of the matter is, in any situation, unless you die, life will go on, and it’s up to you how your life is lived. You can face the dull, and settle for it, or you can challenge it, and turn it into something better. You can cower from the impossible, sticking only to what you know, or you can face your fear of the unknown head-on, and move past the limitations of stunted growth.

There’s never a good reason to not explore the unknown. Knowing too much isn’t a thing, and having too much experience is a bold lie. You can ALWAYS learn something more, you can ALWAYS benefit from knowing, rather than choosing not to take the risk.

Take chances. Make Mistakes. Get Messy.

A quote from a silly kids cartoon that shaped who I am a LONG time ago. Nothing will ever be good enough for me, which is why I have trouble committing to any one decision. But that’s okay. I’m curious. I like to explore so that I know what I’m up against. I don’t ever want to feel like I am missing out, but I am willing to make the sacrifice for the long-haul, to do what is necessary to get a job done, and to take the more difficult situation if I can change things for the better, even if it means sacrificing my own enjoyment or comfort in the meantime.

I’m no saint though. I’ve made plenty of mistakes. I’ve chosen the wrong path, the wrong guy, made the wrong decision. I’ve been out too late, and picked too many battles, helped the wrong person, or not taken care of myself enough. But that’s the beauty of constantly choosing to stay curious, to thirst for more, to want to see what can happen, and challenge your boundaries each and every day. It means I get the chance to reinvent myself every day. I get to look at something new, determine what it means for me, and I can choose to embrace it, or walk in another direction. It’s liberating.

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